Quite a few years ago now I went through a divorce. To say I was stressed was an understatement and I channeled that stress through working out and controlling what I ate. I suppose by definition I had a bit of an eating disorder and I lost a lot of weight.
The divorce was finalized and I continued with life. I moved out of the town where I had had easy access to a gym to a neighboring town and into an apartment. No easy access to a gym and my workouts stopped. You could say I did the opposite - no constant working out and not nearly as much time spent limiting what I ate. The obsession, it seemed, was over.
Unfortunately the inevitable happened and because I stopped the "healthier" living, I gained weight. But I told myself it was okay. My son loved my tummy and I used that as justification. Eventually I started dating a great guy (who I am marrying!) and I really started to settle into a comfortable life, which didn't help the weight again.
And through this all, my lack of fitness bothered me but I told myself it was okay to be heavier. It was obviously better than the alternative - obsessing over burned calories and being super restrictive with food. I used this to okay not truly getting healthy - no middle ground for me. It was all or nothing.
But now I am running. And I am feeling myself getting obsessed with it. I am currently training for a 5K, but in the process I have pushed myself to complete 4 virtual 5K run this month. I do listen to my body and slow down when I need to, but I have signed up for 24 races since starting my 5K program at the end of January.
11 - 5K runs
2 - 10K/Half Marathons
5 - 6K-9K runs
6 - distance runs
Of those I have completed four of the 5Ks and three of the distance runs (20+ miles). Granted the runs are all virtual so I can do them at my own pace and over several days when necessary.
Do you think I have a problem?
A little about me
I blog for fun, to get my thoughts in order. I am a mom to two frustrating and wonderful kids and one diva dog. My full-time gig is teacher and I do some side hustle with a few DS businesses. I love working with people...but I also value my alone time since in reality I'm a huge introvert.