I've had a lot of opportunity to ponder this topic and what it means.
We have the standard good-bye; saying it to those that we plan to see later at some point.
Then there is the final relational goodbye; writing off someone who has harmed us or we are better off not in our lives.
But the two I have really thought about lately are relational and death related.
The first is related to teaching. I have several students that have left my classroom. Not because of a family move, but because of more stressful situations - removal from the home, treatment, etc. I miss these kids and I will never have a chance to let them know how much I thought of them. I wonder about these kids. I worry about them. And this year I have struggled to remove them from certain educational accounts because I'm not ready to say goodbye to them as a student.
The second is death related. And as silly as it seems, this was brought to light with the death of Bitsy, one of our hamsters. I knew that the likelihood of the hamsters (we have two that I adopted) surviving through the summer was unlikely. They were "teenagers" when I adopted them and the lifespan of Syrian hamsters is only 2-3 years. Bitsy wasn't looking herself for about a week or so - her fur was "off" and looking a little thinner and a little grey. I should have started prepping myself and my kids then.
Friday I was cleaning her cage and I found her, barely responsive and cold. I knew there was nothing I could do and the best thing was to make sure she was a comfortable as possible by making sure she was snuggled into some fresh bedding and keeping her away from any students that would be stopping in my room as the day went on. She was gone by the time we got home and my son buried her before heading to his dad's for the week.
Both of these types of "goodbyes" have been weighing on me lately. Was there something more I could have done - to help the student or to save the hamster? Was there something I was supposed to take away from the situation that I might have missed? Why did it have to happen?
There are always so many questions the go with good-byes, even if you feel prepared.
A little about me
I blog for fun, to get my thoughts in order. I am a mom to two frustrating and wonderful kids and one diva dog. My full-time gig is teacher and I do some side hustle with a few DS businesses. I love working with people...but I also value my alone time since in reality I'm a huge introvert.